-farh.A.zhar-

2011-12-06T21:14:00.000-08:00

I was once an active blogger. I stopped when I have lost my touch in writing. I wonder why. Any advise?

I write for myself, I write for them, and most of all I write for you.

Cerita Malam Tadi.

2011-09-06T21:38:00.000-07:00

Aku tak sedar bila benda ni berlaku, tapi aku rasa baru jugak. Sebab dua malam sebelumnya aku tengok account Facebook dia. Malam tadi, a friend of mine tweeted me. Dia kata ada benda nak bagitahu. So aku pun came online and we had a chat.

I was told that I was deleted from her friend list. Okay, fine. I'm good. I'll be fine without you being my friend, both in real life and in the social network world. So, the story goes, her beloved girlfriend stalked us. Sebab jealousy, I supposed. And I came to know that not only me, but ramai lagi kawan-kawan yang kena delete because of jealousy jugak.

Seriously, perempuan (the girlfriend, not my used-to-be-now-deleted-friend), kau sedar tak kau tu dah tua, dah layak bertaubat. She's fucking 19, she deserves her freedom That is not what you claimed as love. Where in the world can you find a love that take friends' away from each other? Dumbass. You are being immature. But I don't blame you alone, though.

To you my used-to-be-friend, you enslaved yourself to her. That was your choice. You choose to be with her, pledged yourself to her. Sekarang ni kalau betullah kawan-kawan kau bengang sungguh dengan kau, janganlah cari balik. Aku mungkin tak terkesan sangat, tapi kalau ada yang betul-betul terhiris hati dengan kau, pandai-pandai lah kau.

Just that, I hope one day you will come to realise that whatever you do now will affect you in every way in your life. And I mean, whatever, IF.. you know what I mean.

2011-09-03T10:01:00.001-07:00

We've decided to go to Ipoh for this year's eid. Should be fun, I thought. And it did! Difference is that, this year we stayed in a hotel instead of our kampung.

Mak Long called once we reached Simpang Pulai's toll. Telling us that her family's cleaning our Opah's house. So Daddy stopped by the house to see the progress. It has been a long time since our last visit. After Opah passed, we left for Sudan. Since then, we never visited the house.

So our eid this raya was not entirely different, just that we had to wake up earlier because we need to go to our Opah's house.

After the 'orang surau' came by, we went for 'melanggar' a lot. Like a lot a lot. LOL.

On the second day of 'raya', we went back to KL to repack for Muar trip.

2011-08-16T21:16:00.000-07:00

Yesterday (August 17th, 2011), we had our first Dispensed Preparation Method II test. We thought, it was supposed to be things like classifications, how to make this and that, you know, easy things. But it turned out to be entirely different. I mean like, literally. It was as if, our lecturer nak kenakan kitorang kaw kaw! You know, 'Oh, now you know the real deal to be a Pharmacist!'. Dang it it was freaking killing us!!

Lepas tu, semua memang jangan cerita lah, muka ketat keluar kelas. Pfft! I hope my result will turn out JUST FINE.

July 10th, 2011

2011-07-29T03:50:00.001-07:00

Anniversary gift Rawrstar gave me. Thanks, Love.

27th July, 2011

2011-07-27T01:37:00.000-07:00

Not exactly the day I would treasure in my diary, but I feel like writing still.

Class started as usual. The same lecturer, the same class, the same subject and the same timing. God, this is boring. So we were taking out our stuff (book, etc) and suddenly the lecturer boomed us, "This is my last chapter with you."

We were stunned, and many of us would love to not have any class tomorrow since, well, they were all thinking that there will be no lecturer to teach us. But I personally think, there WILL be one. And duh, please our dearest Program Manager, do take us out from this curse of having a boring lecturer.

So yeah, that's about it. Two classes today.

2011-07-26T07:34:00.001-07:00

- Feels like showing off this image of myself.

- New glasses.

Somehow, I'm kinda liking this picture. Yes, I am vain.

Esok.

2011-07-21T07:54:00.000-07:00

Esok merupakan hari jadi si dia. Mulanya, aku nak bagi hadiah hari Ahad nanti walaupun ulang tahunnya esok. Tapi tadi bila minta si dia datang hostel, katanya tak nak. Tup tup ada kat bawah tengah tunggu aku turun. Cepat-cepat aku keringkan badan *lepas mandi*. Jadinya, sarung apa yang tercapai, terus keluar. Belum sempat sampai pintu rumah, aku patah balik ambil cincin yang aku beli dengan tisu.

Bila aku keluar lif, aku nampak si dia tengah duduk atas motor, hisap rokok. Bau rokok macam aku kenal sangat :) *rindu lettew Fa nak smoke* Senyum panjang aku tengok si dia. Gembira hati lah tu kononnya. Aku pun hulurkan tisu yang aku beli tempoh hari kat Leisure Mall. Comel tisu tu. "Nah, Happy Birthday!" Si dia dengan blurnya ambik lah. Senyum je. Mungkin dalam hati merungut. Birthday aku, diberinya card besar dengan kek Secret Recipe. Birthday dia, aku hulur tisu comel je.

Duduk dekat parking area tu, borak-borak sikit. Lepas tu, si dia letak kan kepalanya atas peha aku sambil aku acah-acah cekik dia.

"I want to ask you a question, may I?" berdebar aku mulakan. "Sure," balasnya sambil melihat jam.
"Will you stay with me even if I am fucked up, messed up and just still be with me and be my perfect lover?" Katanya membalas apa aku cakap, dia tak perfect. Takpe, aku kata "Be mine." Aku keluarkan cincin dalm kotak heart, aku hulurkan. Tersenyum dia. Terus aku sarungkan cincin.

To you: I love you so much. Happy 19th birthday, May GOD bless you and live a happy life :)

Semester 4.

2011-07-12T22:12:00.000-07:00

Our new semester started on July 11th, 2011. Well, I thought it will be a fun semester since one of the senior said it wasn't gonna be as tough as our second semester. But it turned out to be just the same. I am still trying to think positive of it. We get our schedule on Monday itself, but we knew that our Monday class will start at 10 a.m. Once the schedule was in my hand, I found out that our schedule is sooooo damn packed. =.=!' What a start. Pfft!

What happened?

2011-06-30T09:39:00.000-07:00

Ever felt like you think you know what happen but you actually don't? Ever felt like you think like you are getting it straight but when you try to do so, you are actually making it worst? How can you entangle it?

Library

2011-04-28T23:17:00.000-07:00

Kalau ikut kata cousin aku, Kak Liza, aku ni poyo. Duduk library tapi bukan nak study.

"Kak Liza, sini sejuk tau? Tenang, aman,"

Next class will be at 3p.m, so I have this one whole hour for myself. Haha. Lepas ni kelas Bahasa Kebangsaan. Serius, aku tak tau nak buat apa nanti kat dalam. So far, alhamdulillah, aku tak mengantuk lagi. Mintak dijauhkan dari amalan itu. Lama dah tak tidur dalam kelas. Wah.. Nampak sangat selalu buat. Takpe lah, pengalaman. Untuk bakal anak aku yang tak tau berapa tahun lagi akan lagi, jangan ikut perangai mak kau ni.

Teruja

2011-04-27T05:59:00.000-07:00

Blog walking tadi, jalan punya jalan, baca lah a good friend of mine punya. Anis, aku pun text. Teruja ni. Bila dia reply, dia kata dia baru IM aku kat Facebook. WAHH..!!

Cerita pasal si Anis ni, alkisahnya, dulu aku ni sombong dalam kelas. Tak bertegur dengan orang. Dah sifat semulajadi aku. Nak buat macam mana. So satu malam ni, aku tengah buat kerja Maths, entah lah macam mana aku message dia. Aku rasa sebab aku tanya soalan kot. Dah alang-alang tu, aku pun konon-konon nak tackle dia. Comel dia dulu. LOL *gurau kasar, okay?* Aku pun tanyalah macam-macam. Adik-beradik berapa, duduk mana, apa semua tu. Bayangkan, selama aku sekelas dengan dia dari sekolah rendah, dekat 5 tahun jugak, cakap Hi dengan dia pun tak pernah. Musykil jugak aku bila aku ada number dia.

Esoknya, baru aku pergi kat meja dia and tegur dia. Tanya nak makan apa masa break. Mampu? Sejak hari tu, kitorang mula rapat. Aku sebagai protector dia. Wah..! Takpe, aku sanggup :) Sampailah hari aku terpaksa berpindah dari bumi Malaysia ke bumi Afrika. Anis menyorok kat belakang, menangis seorang. Nak buat macam macam, aku terpaksa pergi. Cehh.. Dia bagi aku sekeping surat *ecehh*. Dalam tu actually cerpen, dia tulis untuk aku. Terharu wa cakap lu :) Meraung-raung aku baca.

The first few months aku kat Sudan, dia hantar aku email through MMS. Dia hantar gambar F & A, record suara dia. Bila aku rindu aku dengar. Sampai masa bila dia boleh berdiri tanpa aku, slowly, semua tu stop. Lama-lama aku pun jarang gila b*b* message dia, dia pun sama. Masing-masing bawak haluan sendiri.

Tapi sekarang bila dapat chat, aku rasa puas. Seronok. Excited. Aku rindu kau.

Wonderland

2011-04-26T20:06:00.000-07:00

Tengok tajuk, aku pun sampai sekarang tertanya-tanya kenapa Farid panggil tempat ni wonderland. Mengikut kisah daripada Airil yang sekarang ni bersebelahan dengan aku:

"Senior aku cakap, tempat ni colourful, dengan lightning dia, sebab tu panggil Wonderland."

Ala-ala meriah gitu. Wah! Va va voom sangat ayat. Sementara tunggu next class, kitorang duduk lah kat Wonderland ni sambil online and habiskan kerja ICT kitorang.

Perlu ke tajuk?

2011-04-26T03:25:00.000-07:00

Lama dah aku tak post anything kat blog ni. Bersawang bersarang semua dah kot blog aku ni. Hmm.. So I've been busy with my life. Ecehh.. nak jugak speaking ni. Since dah start college ni setahun lepas, kerja aku menghadap kelas, buku, kerja semua. *Nak cakap aku rajin ni* Sekarang aku dah Semester 3, first year lagi. Yes, setahun aku ada tiga sem, okay? Nak cakap pasal Sem 3 lah ni, aku tak tahu yang course aku akan bergabung dengan empat course lain. MLT (Medical Lab Tech), Healthcare, Nursing seorang, and EH (Environmental Health).

Mula-mula budak-budak EH ni semua cuti lagi, so kelas kitorang ni takde lah penuh mana. Bila lecturer cakap 88 orang, aku macam, "Alah.. sikit." Nak dijadikan cerita, hari Isnin lepas aku datang lambat. *Lambat bangun, faham?* Masuk-masuk je LHG-12 ni, mak aih, penuh wa cakap lu. Aku selalu duduk depan-depan, sebab belakang mesti nanti ramai. I mean, course lain. So aku duduk lah sebaris dengan course aku. Selamatlah konon. Dah lambat hari Isnin tu, kena lah duduk belakang. Second last pulak tu. Memang terbaiklah aku tak nampak apa-apa kat depan. *Maklumlah, rabun* Kelas Bahasa Kebangsaan pulak. Memanglah kena faham, panjang woo explanation.

Lepas tu pulak, ada lah budak ni dalam kelas aku. Mula masuk dulu, memang kitorang ngam. Lepas conflicts happened, aku memang tak boleh masuk dah dengan dia. Sedap mengutuk, kena pulak sekelas dengan dia sem ni. Yang member aku, kena sekelas dengan budak dia baling bola ping pong dulu. Malu budak tu dibuatnya.

Lecturers, semua okay. Aku ada empat subjects je sem ni, Bahasa Kebangsaan, Pengajian Malaysia, ICT and Agama. Cehh..

Oh lupa, sibuk cerita pasal kelas. Aku nak cerita pulak kisah hidup aku masa weekends. Since bulan Januari lepas, aku kerja as a Petrosains Volunteer. Tapi aku under Skybridge Department. Which means, aku takde kat Petrosains tingkat 4, tapi kat Concourse level. Hihi.. Alhamdulillah, aku bahagia dengan hidup aku. Wah!! Statement sangat. So..

Till then, BYE..

New start.

2011-02-04T00:05:00.000-08:00

Someone reminded me how I've always updated my blog, writing every single word that passed by my mind. Lately, I couldn't find a word to write anything. Plus, my time of blogging, of updating, and everything has been cut down. I mean, it's like the time is jealous of me. The more I'm free, the more everything come in to the picture. But anyways, thanks for remembering. It's been a good thing to keep you in my memory :)

April 6th, 2010

2010-06-25T21:28:00.000-07:00

Missing someone is always apart of someone. The feeling has been created to be Love's best friend. Love here doesn't only means love to the special ones, but love has all sorts of meanings.

RIP Aztika Azrin

2010-06-22T07:09:00.000-07:00

I'll be missing you, Beng.
Bong tengok news pasal your car crash, Bong tak sangka tu Beng. I miss you, Beng. I'll remember our moments together. Beng suka Nutella kan? :) Bong tak sempat nak jumpa Beng kat Penang, I'm sorry. And turned out, memang Bong tak dapat langsung jumpa Beng. RIP, Beng.

Aztika Azrin (January 30th, 1996 - June 6th, 2010)
It's too late for me to post this, I just thought, it's time.

Hi :(

2010-06-20T22:02:00.000-07:00

Yes, this is a sad post. I'm currently in Sarawak and everyday missing you. No wait, scratch that! Every second missing you. So, I'll be here for like, three full weeks for my semester break. Yeah, I know, it's a holiday for me =] Oh by the way, I'm 18 now, on June 18th. I feel old, but looking at the bright side of it, I can now legally watch 18-rated movies!!! Right, Farha, stop it.

So, as you know, my life in Sarawak is more like a training to be a housewife. Yes, I know, WHAT!? Well you see, I have to go back and forth from both primary and secondary school everyday, I have to make sure the groceries are perfect, take care of the kids (in my case, my siblings), etc, BUT except for cooking. Haha!

And right now, I'd love to write more but I have to go!! Toodles!

Hi Again?

2010-06-02T08:51:00.000-07:00

I'm home now. Just for a night, though.

I seriously don't know what to update, I'm freaking-ly doesn't have time to visit the internet cafe everyday and heck, I ain't rich!

Honestly, I'm quite sad now. Sara's going to Jengka, Pahang for a course offered by UiTM. Arul's gone to MMU last Sunday, Anis went to UiTM Punkcak Alam, and Ellyn will be going to Unisel on June 19th. I'll be missing them the hell much. I am now, as a matter of fact.

That's all, I can't think more.

Hi :)

2010-05-10T00:27:00.000-07:00

It has been quite a long time since I've been away. I'm currently studying at Masterskill University College of Health Science since April 19th, 2010. I'm taking Diploma in Pharmacy. So far, things have been going fine. From April 19th, 2010 until May 30th, 2010, I'm required to attend only one class a day, which is Chemistry I. Below is my schedule for the time being:

Monday: 10a.m - 12p.m
Tuesday: 2p.m - 4p.m
Wednesday: 2p.m - 4p.m
Thursday: 4p.m - 6p.m
Friday: 3p.m - 5p.m

So, for the first two weeks, I've been 'makan kedai' with my housemates and a few of my friends. "Makcik kedai pun dah muak tengok muka kita," a friend of mine, Syah, said. But just a few days back, Mummy (Sal's mother) came and bought an electrical kitchen for us. Since then, the girls -except for me- keep on cooking while as for me, keep on eating XDD

For overnight leave, we are allowed to take only once a month. Which is sad :( Hmm.. what else? I guess that's it for now. Will update later. Toodles!

[p/s; I get the chance to see someone regularly now! =]]] ]

Ellyn Doink's

2010-04-13T05:46:00.000-07:00

Above is our chat box. Ellyn Doink and I :) look carefully, and you see this.

I Love You Twin..! <33

SARA, you have made me LAUGH!

2010-03-30T02:33:00.001-07:00

The Return

2010-03-26T08:59:00.000-07:00

On March 7th, 2010, I went to KL for a ten days visit. It has been 3 months since I last met my friends and hang out. Those ten days weren't enough for me :( But I guess that's all I can ask from my parents :(

March 7th, 2010 : 1900

Kam and Leesya came to LCCT to fecth me home. Kam drove all the way and because she wasn't that familiar, we were lost somewhere in Putrajaya. I should have been help but I couldn't remember the way home quite well. SO yeah, we spent almost 2 hrs just to find our way out. It was as fun as hanging out, eventhough we were literally in the car all the time :)

March 8th, 2010

I went to my house (I stayed at my aunt't house for the whole 10 days) and agreed to meet Leesya as planned. I was supposed to clean up the house and pack few things and so on. When I was tired, I slept. Not forgotten Leesya too :)

March 9th, 2010

I met Sara for the first time after 3 months being away. It was great to get to see her again. I MISS HER SO DAMN MUCH! We hung out around KL for a while and met Ellyn. Sara accompanied me to find some things :) Sara, I miss you still. In the evening, Leesya came and give me a ride back to my aunt's house.

March 10th, 2010 : 0810

Leesya came to fetch me from my aunt's house. She called me late at night telling me that. When we were on our way, she told me her real plans for that day. She took me to a place I wanted to go. It was a great experience and was one of the best day during the short visit. Back home, Ain and AinAin followed us, met Kam and went for lunch. Then everyone went to my house and get a rest. Thank you for that.

March 11th, 2010

I met Cha early in the morning. Together, we went to Titiwangsa to meet Shi Wei and Munah. We took a bus to Genting to take our results in KGH. Panicked in the bus, we were stranded at the roadside few kilometers ahead from school. At the school, I met my ex-classmates, Hanii, and few teachers. GOSH, I miss those days so much.

March 12th, 2010

Again, I met Leesya at home. She came after pray time. Just sitting at home, we talked about a lot of stuff. It was nice, and she sent me home, again :)

March 13th, 2010 : 1330

Dad called early in the morning asking me to go to Edu Fair at the PWTC. Lucky me, Anis was free. Our date went nice and smooth. I miss her too, and it was great having her for almost a day talking :)

March 14th, 2010

Didn't do much on this day. I sat at home and went to a wedding event with my cousins :)

March 15th, 2010

Got my hair cut on this day, Then I met Angah and Sys Ateen :) Hang out at the Coffee Bean Pavillion and met Ellyn for the second time. Late eve, I went to LCCT to fecth my mum and head back to my aunt's house.

March 16th, 2010

I went home again and met Leesya for the last time. Together with Sara and Arul, we went for lunch and hang 'in' my house :)

March 17th, 2010

I went to Masterskill, Cheras with mum for registration. Finally decided to do a course there. At 1330, I flew back to Bintulu by Air Asia.

[p/s; TQ everyone :) ]

:)

2010-02-19T21:56:00.000-08:00

This blog will not be in used for a moment.
Thank You

Eff-ignly stupid II

2010-01-22T07:48:00.000-08:00

Again, Sara Twin gave me XD

January 16th, 2010

2010-01-16T08:54:00.001-08:00

R.I.P Mike the Rat

To whom it may concern;

2010-01-15T22:15:00.001-08:00

I MISS YOU

Pieces

2010-01-13T06:39:00.000-08:00

I remember every bit of the things that hit my old memories. They are painful to endure yet very beautiful to cherish. A mistake would not be easy to forget, but the truth that was told was never a lie. Not a single fib was said, though I am now a perfect liar. The deed is done, and the punishment is going on still. Anger has shown itself, lies has become an ideal getaway when facts are now believed as stories.

One simple word has made a difference. Happiness was chosen instead of sorrow. A helpless yet wound-able phrase was said, a straightforward touch has approved two unspoken thoughts. Promises were broken when bond was untied. One long conversation made no change. One last word whispered and the story ended as if, two hands weren't meant to imprison themselves; fingers weren't suppose to be entwined together.

The best is what people deserves.

[p/s; Takde motif, saje nak bagi Sara Twin baca :) ]

ELUVEITIE - Inis Mona

2010-01-13T05:24:00.000-08:00

A Question

2010-01-13T04:52:00.000-08:00

W H Y ?

Would you answer me?

From Sara :)

2010-01-07T07:30:00.001-08:00

Thank you, my dear Sara :) loveyou!!

Eff-ingly stupid

2010-01-02T21:27:00.001-08:00

Got this from Sara Twinnie XD

2.43 a.m. on Jan 2nd, 2010

2010-01-01T10:45:00.001-08:00

Crying out loud

CRAP! I'm trying to stop!!

The Last Day of 2009

2009-12-30T11:45:00.000-08:00

It's 3.22a.m on December 31st, 2009. Today's the last the day of 2009. I learned a lot throughout the year. 2009 has taught me a lot of useful lessons eventhough I have no new-year resolution. I coupled-up, I broke up, I lost, I won, I fell down, I stand up.Thank you 2009 for giving such a head-ache year since I was a former Form 5. I learned how to overcome the pain, I learned how to be strong, I learned how to treasure. A lot of things happened and honestly, they are not the things that can be easily forgotten. I met new people, I made new friends, I live a different life. I found a new path, I found a new soul, I have a new heart. Things that are meant to be kept, are kept safe. Things that should be forgiven, are forgiven. Things that are meant to be loved, are loved.

Thanks you 2009 for giving me such a breakable time and make it up again by giving me happiness. Lets meet 2010 with a new spirit..

[p/s; though, i still have no resolution]

Do I?

2009-12-26T03:48:00.000-08:00

Just stop. I'm not strong anymore to hold it. My chest is already full, would you mind taking over? Or if you are kind enough, please stop killing me softly. It's like being tortured, like a heavy weight thingy is left on my chest, and I couldn't breath. Please, I need the breathing machine. It's like being left in a vacuumed room, and I need oxygen, but it isn't there for me to breath in. Please, let some air in. It's like suffering from a painful agonizing pain, like I'm diagnosed by the doctor and have an illness. Please, I need to undergo an operation. Yet somehow, the breathing machine, the air and the operation wouldn't work for me now. Will this throbbing sorrow causes death? Or will it stay and wont go away? Do I have to live with it? Do I?

[p/s; will I stay alive?]

Jenab punye kerja !

2009-12-23T11:39:00.000-08:00

first picture is the artist and the girlfriend
second picture is Leesya
third picture is me

=]]

Words 002

2009-12-20T01:07:00.001-08:00

'i love you'

Sometimes when I say
"i'm fine",
I want someone to look me in the eyes & say
"tell me the truth".

I can hide the pain that i feel. And make others think that i can move on.
But i can never deny the truth that, the person who failed and hurt me,
is still the same person i wish to love me.

I do say things that hurt others without knowing, and I'm Sorry

Oh! Carol!

2009-12-19T08:38:00.000-08:00

Chat with Cha, she gave me this song ;)

Goo Goo Dolls - Iris

2009-12-15T22:58:00.001-08:00

Found this song by accident ;)

Walk Hard: Let's Duet (Dewey Cox ft Darlene)

2009-12-14T22:11:00.000-08:00

Words

2009-12-13T03:09:00.000-08:00

I was born the day you kissed me,
died the day you left me,
but lived for the time that you loved me.

I want..

2009-12-12T08:40:00.000-08:00

I wanna be the reason for the smile on your face
I wanna be the one that you'll never replace
I wanna be the girl who steals your heart
I want you to want us to never be apart
I wanna wake up with you lying by my side
I wanna be the one you want to make your bride
I wanna hold you close,
wanna feel you hold me tight
I wanna fall asleep with you,
wanna be your guiding light
I wanna be the girl you see,
when you point and say 'thats her'
I wanna be the girl to whom no-one can compare
I wanna be the one you love until the end of time
I wanna be the reason that
you write these stupid rhymes
I wanna be your one and only,
you're every dream come true
I want ours to be a perfect love,
that others compare their's to
I wanna be your angel, wanna be your fantasy
Just take a look around you baby, we were meant to be

It's you

2009-12-12T08:38:00.000-08:00

I love the way you look at me
even when you don't think i'm watching.
I love the way you smile at me
even when i've said the most stupidest thing.
I love the way we can fight
and hang up the phone knowing
the other person wants to call
back but both are too stubborn.
I love the way you can light up
my face by just walking in a room.
I love the way you look at me
as you gently kiss my forehead
I love all of this,
but what i love most is...you
And i can't imagine living any other way;
even if i can't see you every day,
your voice echoes in my head,
your love remains in my heart.

[p/s; all I wanted right now, is to see the love that used to be there in your eyes]

Promise

2009-12-12T08:32:00.000-08:00

I can't promise you the world,
But I can try to give you a happy life.
I can't promise you I'll never yell,
But I can try to stay calm most of the time.
I can't promise you I'll never make mistakes,
But I can try the best I can.
I can't promise you that
I'll catch you every time you fall,
But I can try to always be close by
so I can help you back up.
I can't promise that our love
will last forever like in storybooks,
But I can promise that no matter what, I
I'll never forget the memories I made with you.

Does it matter?

2009-11-25T22:34:00.000-08:00

Why must it happen again? Should you just leave it hanging, refuse to accept the truth or get ready to face anything and when it comes you just act like nothing happen? It's not about who or what is it about, but it's about how you feel. Ready to face it means you know what ever risk you're taking is going to affect you one way or another.

Should you just ignore your feelings because you don't want to get hurt or would you prefer to let it all out, but only when nobody's around? Which one is the best? To know the truth would hurt you the most but not to know what's really going on is like you detached yourself from the reality. Even though it's wrong, but you know by doing so you'll be okay.

Would you cry for just once so that what ever the pain you are feeling are all out with the tears or would you be heartless and pretend to be strong so that you won't feel weak as if the whole world is on top of you? Being cold might be the best, but when you 'accidentally' recall everything, that is far more worst than being weak.

Would you rather not to say anything for you fear what you try to hide being revealed or would you be honest to yourself and words it out? By not doing so you know you have to keep it, but it's better than to let people know what's inside of you; the REAL you.

What ever it is, does it matter to you on how you handle your things or you'd think that you are actually running away?

[p/s; who's that person? Words aren't the best for me, as it always failed me in the past]

shit!!!

2009-10-19T08:46:00.000-07:00

Liars were born to be liars

Dying Inside

2009-09-24T13:46:00.000-07:00

You thought that it finally ends. All those sufferings, the dark life you're living in, and the misery you're feeding on.

A nice day it was, you went out just get a life once in a while. Meet up with some friends and by accident found a light. A light which was so damn bright that it hurts your eyes and somehow gave you a hope ; to bring you out from the life you're living in. To get you the hell out from the sorrow. Without any warning, he/she step into your life and start to shine your life with a lot of different colours. You know it wont last forever, but never wish for it to come so soon.

Your wish didn't come true. The day you both were away was the day your heart was crushed. You weren't left alone, but your heart were. The pain struck your heart right in the middle and there you were, weakened by the force of an aching ignorance. Killed by a throbbing callous act. Again, you wished. You wished that it was all just a dream except for the fact that you know it was just another way of comforting yourself.

And all you could do tonight is just writing. Being as cold as you can like who you used to be. Care less of what ever happened. Hardhearted and cold.

I'm sorry, I just can't detached myself from you.

[p/s; don't ask]

Us =]

2009-09-23T00:34:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my Mum's birthday and also the third day of raya. So Mum invited guests to come along :) I invited my old friends, Merve and Yang.

13 September 2009

2009-09-19T00:23:00.000-07:00

being silly with shirt tucked in

The day I left Malaysia. HAHA Going to Sudan on this day with Kak Hafizah ONLY =]]

The two of us met at Tower 1 KLCC for me to exchange car. We both went to KLIA by Uncle Hasnol's car, and he helped us to check-in =D

As we walked in, I mean, passed the departure thingy part, we both were alone AND nervous. Hee.. Flight will be around 3.30am, so we just hung around like we've never been there before. HAHA

Arrived at Doha at 5.30am (10.30am in Malaysia) and guess what? Our flight to Khartoum which should be at 7.40am was delayed for 5 hours!!!!!!! Again, we had to hung around like two idiots. So, the third time we went into the bathroom, we took some pictures :)

Do You?

2009-09-15T21:10:00.000-07:00

Do you think that it is stupid to say NO to someone else just to be fair to others?

I mean like, two different person invited you out. To the first one, A, you said 'I'm sorry, I'm busy.' The next minute, someone you really wanted to go out with, B, text you and ask you out, and the only thing you can say is the same thing, 'I'm sorry, I'm busy' when the real reason is that you are trying to be fair. The next hour, you call someone and ask him/her out since you're so damn boring at home. When A got to know, hes/he questioned you why.

Does it sounds stupid? You let go of what makes you happy just to make sure that you are fair enough to two different but important people in your life.

In the last post, I wrote this ; 'Hearts are often broken when words are left unspoken.' You know it's for real. Your ego stops you from being sorry, is that okay? No, it's NOT okay. What do you get from being an ego kind of person? Nothing. Well, you do get something, not getting hurt for what you've done yourself. But in the end, do you think you worth it?

You know you don't
You know that it kills you
You know you're hurt
And you know you will do nothing

For fuck's sake, would you stop being sorry when you know it's YOUR fault?

[p/s; do you think this post reflects me?]

What actually happened?

2009-09-01T17:27:00.002-07:00

You fall for someone but yet he/she doesn't fall for you in return. In fact, he/she just hates you 'cause you have that feeling for him/her.

It's hard isn't it? You can ignore every single pain in your heart, but when someone or something reminds you of 'em, its not easy for you to resist it.

Yet when you hold her/him in your arms, you just can't help but to worry that he/she might leave you alone without him/her by your side anymore.

And I just have to ignore what ever pain inside of me, stop worrying that 'someone' will ever go away, and stop falling if it hurts too much.

This is for you :)

2009-08-25T03:15:00.000-07:00

When you were mad, I was scared. I was scared that I wasn't able to see that smile that I love on your face. And when you laugh, I'm so glad. I'm glad that even though it's not me who make you laugh, but I know somehow you love it :)

When ever you're close by, I feel like I wanna hold you close; so close that I can breathe you in. Each time I hug you tight, I draw in your scent. I fill myself in with your perfect aroma. And each time you let go, I feel like I miss something so important in my life.

Holding you make me feel safe. Hugging you chase away the emptiness. Being with you fills me up with all sorts of strength. I don’t feel like talking. I just wanna look at you in the eyes, look at you when you talk and when you smile.

Thank you for putting an honest smile on my face, thank you for giving me my happiness back and thank you for always being by my side to tell me never to give up.

You're the reason for my smile; you're the reason for my growing spirit.

Hearts are often broken when words are left unspoken. I don't wanna make that same mistake again, and this time I don't regret knowing you. Ily, Leesya :)

[p/s; to you, this is just a piece of what I feel. It grows every single day]

Worry

2009-08-24T10:17:00.000-07:00

I try not to worry
About you.. out there with someone else
But then again, each time I try not to
Negative thoughts came in
Not that I doubt you
But I'm worried sick
I'm worried 'cause I saw how beautiful she is
How attractive she is
And somehow I just know she's SO important to you
I don't know who she is
And I trust your words

Don't lie please..
Not that I'm forcing
But I don't want to be the reason
You disconnected yourself with your world

And sorry,
I can never be the perfect one for you

[p/s; Ini hanye lah rekaan semata-mata]

I Do Things I Shouldn't Do

2009-07-28T17:55:00.000-07:00

SHIT..!! Yes, I curse! So what?

Translation; I'm depressed, Stucked, and SO DAMN Fucked up!

I hate it the most when I'm stucked and I have to make a decission which I'm so bloody not sure of and in the end I have to live with it.

So what am I to do? Die? sounds good

[p/s; post ini menggambarkan saye yang sedang sakit hati, marah dan segala perasaan negatif yang singgah]

Heart

2009-07-19T23:51:00.000-07:00

I'm at school right now. I just finished my English Oral and I love it :) It was WAY better than the BM Oral which sucks :( The BM examiner put on A LOT of pressure on US :((

Right, heart. No, I'm not gonna talk about heart in science :D I couldn't remember the heart perfectly. I know it has 4 chambers (thanks to Ashroy, you remind me). And the rest, no thanks, I dont really remember it.

So, what about heart. A girl is in love with someone. And that someone has this kinda reason why they should not be in a relationship - her ex is his friend. But the girl knows that, even if that's the reason, he should not hide what he feels. And when she asked what does his heart wants, he said 'I don't have a heart, babe'

Well then, is that right? Not to have a heart to give? Personally I think, yes, that's the best thing ever happen. Being a heartless person is the best. Because :
i) when there's no heart to give, there will be no heart being broken
ii) when there's no heart to give, there will be no complications
iii) when there's no heart to give, there will be no sadness

Yes? So people, who second me? :D

[p/s; again, this post is tergantung ;)) ]

Let It Be Or Let It Go?

2009-07-14T17:51:00.000-07:00

As the title states, so which one do you prefer? Would you rather to let it be as how it is or how it was, OR would rather to let it go and go on with your life?

To let it be is to let nothing happen. But to let it go is to let something happen between you and him/her. You know, the end of it. If it ends, you'll be really damn bloody sad and all. But if you let it be, you'll live in misery. I mean, there's nothing that says 'I'm still yours' or 'We have separate ways from now on' isn't it? So which on?

To forget it? Does that means that, you Let It Be that way? Or does that means you Let It Go?

[p/s; the motive is, nothing a.k.a post ini tergantung]

School And The Camp

2009-07-05T20:24:00.000-07:00

We went for a camp at Kem Desa Selesa, Tanjung Malim, Perak on the 4th and 5th of July 2009. It was a nice get-out-from-school days.

On the 4th, we had to go to school since it's a school day thingy. So yeah,all the 89 of us went. But we were released at 12.30, which, was only 30 minutes before school end. Yeah, damn it. So then, around 2 something, we left the school compound gratefully. When we reached the campsite, we settled down in tents and dorms. Right then, we had some activities and we were left free after that. So you know what did the guys do. Sleep, for most of them.

That night, we went for nightwalk. Then, the next day, we went for Orienting and Kembara, Water Confidence and Flying Fox. Then, we went backto scholl. Welcome to hell, bebeh.

And right now, I'm at school, accessing internet through wifi, HIBSWIFI, using Nanda's cell phone. I'm just so bored. Hehh..

[p/s; back pain]

Readers?

2009-06-28T06:15:00.000-07:00

Once, someone came into your life without telling. Once, someone told you that you're the best friend ever had. Once, someone was always there to help you; telling you that you can get through every obstacles. Then, because of just one little phrase that you didn't mean to say killed your friendship.

First, you were never alone. First, you were never to walk on your own. First, you were never to have to stand without any other hand to help. Yet, because of one careless mistake you did showed that as if you never appriciate it and care less about it.

Was it not enough? Was it just a game for you? Was it his/her fault? No, it was more than enough. No, it wasn't just a game for you. No it was your fault. But there's nothing to be done.

It's too late to reverse it back. It's too late to realise that you were to be blame. It's too late to feel the pain. And you know that he/she will never accept your hand for him/her to hold it again.

Now, he/she got over it. Now, he/she is talking to someone else very gladly. Now, he/she is ready to be with someone else again. But somehow you wished that he/she would want to talk to you again; build whatever you crushed before.

You wish you never said that upsetting words. You wish that you never let him/her go. You wish that whatever happened was a dream. Still, you know you live in reality.

[p/s; Who am I writing this to?]

The New Hair =]

2009-06-16T17:14:00.000-07:00

From this

To This

Yes? No?

2009-06-14T23:26:00.000-07:00

Mom and Dad sent me back to school last night [14/6/2009]

I really didn't wish to come back here. And it's not for the school, but for what -make it exact, who- is here. Well, that's for the most reason.

School school school.. I hate it. I just hate it here. I want my OLD life back!!!!!! Colour it with a lot of cheerful colours, so that, whatever kinda of dark life I'm living in right now will never exist. Can you just imagine a life without any source of light? Or rather to say, you lost the light because of your own carelessness.

Like, you went into a forest at night and you had a very bright, helpful and comfortable torch light, but then, you tripped, and you lost it. AND it went off, leaving you in the dark. Having nothing to hold onto, you just have to walk and walk and walk to find your way out of the forest.

Or, you fell down after tripping. You had a very deep wound on your knees. You tried hard to walk home. And on your way home, someone held out a caring hand to help you out. You accepted it, and you could stand firmly on the ground. But when you fell again, you let go of the warm hand. Hoping when you look up, you'll find the owner there. But what happened was vice versa. That person wasn't there to help, not even to look at you. But just walk away. Leaving you there, trying to stand on our own feet; bleeding.

Just to say that, whenever there's someone to help you, to be with you at your worst, hold him. Grab him before it's too late. Let him explore you heart, just to search for any cracks for him to stitch it up. Do not close the door to your heart, and if your heart has a key, give it to him. Let him hold the key. But if you do lose him and could not find any space of forgiveness to forgive yourself, remember this, Let bygones be bygones. Regret is one thing, but to forgive is to open your heart for a better life.

Ask yourself, if you ever get the chance to know yourself again, would you do it? If you ever get the chance to grab the one you love again, would you take it? And if you ever get the chance to be loved again, would you ever let it go again?

[p/s; I'm writing this to myself]

Fall Season =]

2009-06-04T07:58:00.000-07:00

Last Tuesday, 2nd June, Ellyn and I went to Secret Recipe for my lunch =D We used the 'taman' since there was this uncle yang kitorang don't really comfortable with. Hehe.. Then we saw one scenery yang agak jarang dilihat =D It looked like some kind of fall season kat Jepun; Sakura. So so. we took pictures :D

3rd June 2009

2009-06-04T04:28:00.000-07:00

proof :D

Arul and I went to Pavillion today. We took cab to the Cempaka LRT station. And guess what? The taxi driver was so annoying. I mean, so what if I wanna shop at the Pavillion? MY MONEY!! :D okay, my DAD's money. But still, it's my job to use it :D
So so so, the story goes like this.
One fine day, Arul stopped a cab, a red cab. Driven by an uncle. And so, the taxi driver asked, "Kenapa nak pergi Pavillion? Barang sana mahal. Saya ni beli kat bundle je. Pergi Jakarta, Bali, DUBAI pun pakai short bundle je"
I was like, wtf? Lantak lah if I wanna shop there pun. Does my act bother you? No right? So what? So I smiled. Dalam hati, "Pakcik, saya dah pergi Dubai banyak kali dah. Tak kecoh pun"
Arul said, after all, he's just a Taxi Driver. DAMN bising je orang nak pergi shop sana. Bukan duit dia pun. Arul lah :D Not me :)

And that's the story

[p/s; yeah i know, ape sangat right?]

The Curve

2009-05-30T08:55:00.000-07:00

Date ; 30th May 2009
Aim ; to meet Aztika for the last time :(

And the Grapetiser

Aztika The Girl, gonna miss you bebeh =]

[p/s ; would be even nicer is he's there]

Can I?

2009-05-29T08:11:00.000-07:00

Can I turn back time?
Can I go back to the past?
Can I please being given a second chance?
I won’t ruin it
I’ll be good, I promise
I just want to reverse the entire curse
That was put on me
I just want to rehearse all the practices
That I was supposed to learn
I just want to let you know
That I should have rejected you
Instead of letting you in
I just want to let you know
That if you’re not in my life
I know it would have been much happier
With a lot of colours in it

Hari tu..

2009-05-04T00:04:00.001-07:00

Hari tu, ada kisah. Aku kesedihan. Aku pun dapat mimpi.

Kau datang kat aku, kau tercari-cari tangan aku.

Sungguh aku tak faham kenapa.

Tapi lepas tu, kau dapat tangkap tangan aku.

Kau pegang kuat-kuat.

Tak lama, sebab kau tercari-cari sesuatu dalam poket kau.

Kau keluarkan cincin kegemaran aku.

Kau kata ; "Cincin ni aku bagi balik. Bukan sebab aku tak suka. Tapi sebab aku ada cincin baru. Cincin untuk kita."

Aku terharu, dan aku terima.

Kau letak cincin tu dalam genggaman aku.

Kau tak nak sarungkan, kau kata lagi ; "Cincin ni, kalau kau sayang aku, kau akan pakai. Tapi aku tak kisah kalau kau tak nak pakai. Cuma aku harap kau jangan buang."

Aku genggam kuat-kuat cincin tu.

Timbangkan antara nak pakai atau pun tak.

Akhirnya, aku pakai jugak.

Tapi, bila aku nak pandang kau balik, kau hilang.

Aku tak tahu ke mana.

Sekarang pun kau hilang lagi.

Kali ni, hilang betul-betul.

Mana aku nak cari kau?

Datanglah balik, bukan dalam mimpi.

Tapi betul-betul.

Bukan sebab aku mengharap, tapi aku nak jawapan.

Kita ni siapa sekarang?

Aku tak sedih, cuma aku terluka.

Aku tak nangis, sebab aku dah cakap dengan diri aku yang aku takkan nangis.

Jadi, datanglah balik.

Beri aku jawapan.

Tunjuk aku bukti.

Aku tak nak makan hati.

Aku cuma nak gembira.

Tak nak serabut otak.

Kalau kau faham, jawaplah semua soalan dalam otak aku.

Jangan biarkan aku bertanya sorang-sorang.

Aku penat.

Tolong ya, datang balik.

Lepas tu, bila aku dah tahu kenapa kau hilang.

Kau pergilah.

Kalau kau tak nak datang balik pun tak apa.

Aku tak kisah.

Sebab aku dah faham nanti.

[p/s; 'kau' tu siapa?]

Keadaan di sekolah

2009-05-03T23:41:00.000-07:00

Disebabkan aku takde camera and so on, aku hanya mampu tulis je la kan. Sekolah aku takde lah hebat mana sekarang. Nak nak sejak principal buat rules baru :( Sedih aku mengenangkan nasib kami the form Fivers. Nak home visit, dilarang sama sekali. Outing boleh, tapi pergi Gohtong Jaya je. Apa sangat dekat sana. Lepas tu, tak boleh bawak makanan balik boarding. Hatta junk food sekalipun. Mana tahan macam tu. Makanan aku dah habis. Apa lagi nak makan lepas ni. Ikat perut lah jawapnya bila lapar malam-malam. Bukan tak nak beli banyak-banyak terus. Hari tu tak cukup duit, takkan nak bantai duit orang. So decided, beli apa yang patut dulu lah. Nanti Entrepreneurs Day, ada karnival ke apa-apa lah yang diorang panggil. School Cadet buat Haunted House. Penat. Lepas tu, pergi kem ibadah. Konon nak taubat lah ni :P

1st May 2009

2009-05-01T01:46:00.001-07:00

I thought today would change my life
In a good way
But instead it happened the other way round

To you my dear
Once you said you like me
Once you said you miss me
Once you said you love me
Oh how much I'd like it to be true

In return, I gave you my heart
I gave you my perfect soul
With a daring hope you'll keep it
And hold it safe
Close to your heart

And there you go
Hurting me like I'm a simple shit
Pissing me off like you never did
Using me like I've got no feeling

And so here I am
Standing here
With none to hold
Sitting there
With no one to talk to

Slag, I'm not lonely
But I'm empty

So thanks, for breaking me again
Into pieces that can never be seen
And can never be found

Thanks to you, again
Hopefully you'll die in peace
That I've never wish
So die, in reverse

The Bukit Merah Trip :)

2009-04-19T23:07:00.001-07:00

On the 10th and 11th,We,the 5 Arts and the sesat me from 5 Science went to Bukit Merah Laketown Resort for an educational trip to visit Orang Utan Sanctuary :P

On the 10th, we left the school at 2.05p.m.Right after we checked in to the apartment booked, the girls prepared dinner and the boys came to eat. As planned, we went to the Night Safari. We had some fun teasing David, Cha and some of the classmates - well, not MY classmates though. Before we left some of our new 'friends', we went for supper - not exactly supper. More like, our second dinner since we ate a lot. THANKS MR. AL..! :D And that's how the day ended.

The next day, the 11th, we started our day with a buffet breakfast. The girls went straight upstairs to pack up first. Followed by the boys. Right then, the girls went downstairs first, after calling the boys. We started to walk to the err... I dont exactly catch the name. But that was where we pay the fees to enter the Pulau Orang Utan and the Waterpark :D We visited the Orang Utans and did our research about orang utans by asking the ranger -suprisingly, a pengkid, not cute though :P - and recorded whatever we were asked to. We ate our lunch at the Bubble Restaurant before we went to change to play whatever extreme games at the Waterpark.

Cha, Reza, Aqil and I started off with the err... thingy like gelongssor one using floats. Then we played a lot of team games :D Nice ones lah. And I tried the Boomerang. It was so freaking extreme. HAHA for me lah. Yet, I went for the boomerang for 3 times. Few of us tried thousand times. Proved that, it was fun :P And er.. banyak lagi lah :P HAHA

Then, before leaving, ALL of us went for the rumah hantu. THANKS FOR BELANJA-ING ME, AQIL :)) HAHA. The guys, jalan dulu. Song Wey, Vey Hong and David made a real suspens when they screamed with no reasons. Luckily, I have Cha and Hikmah to hold onto -well, more like THEY were holding onto me :P

On the way to school, we all slept. We stopped at a mapley in Batang Kali for supper. We all laughed at the terms like 'Saya punya TEH TARIK AIS' and 'Saya nak ROTI CANAI DENGAN TELUR' and we were entertained by the little argument between Eugene and the mamak.

Eugene : Maggi mee goreng

Mamak : Maggi goreng satu

Eugene : Bukan, maggi MEE goreng

Mdm. Al : Eugene, both are the same

We all laughed at the same time. We were all tired and our mind got mixed up :D

And that's it. Ade banyak lagi gambar, but sume kene rotate. Since I'm not that familiar with apple, I leave it for next time :P IF I'm rajin. Hee...

[p/s; CHA aku rindu gila Cha time nih. HAHA]

OMG

2009-04-17T00:37:00.000-07:00

SHIT shit shit. Stress gila weh DAMN lah .OMG. A lot of thing to think of. Home Visit nak dekat.

Nak HV pn byk gila prob. shit lah wey. NAK BALIK..!!!!!!

haiyooo...

OMFS!!!

2009-03-26T20:31:00.000-07:00

WOARGH!!

hurm.. well..

I'm at school

Computer lab to be precise :) and and

I looked over Ellyn's blog and OMG

WE'RE SO DAMN CUTE..! HAHA no, COOL -KOT

And..

In Cruz's blog..

My memories with my part-time lover :D

heh..

and and...

Deb and me did some cam whoring :D

ATAS TU LAA...

Life =]

2009-03-16T02:55:00.000-07:00

The snow will fall, the ground gets cold,
A baby's born who will grow old.
A blanket of snow covers the ground,
Still the answer is not found.

A bird will chirp, the grass grows green,
And though the clouds the sun is seen.
The flowers bloom, the bees will buzz,
The world again as it once was.

The sun will shine, the day is long,
The birds they sing an endless song.
The sky is bright, the color blue,
A child knows who never knew.

A breeze is felt and with a chill.
The song has stopped that never will.
The leaves will fall, the color red,
A whistle of the wind is all that's said.

Why it happens all this way,
That is not for me to say.
A baby's born who someday dies,
But from the clouds the sun will rise.

Danielle Rosenblatt

At School =.=!''

2009-02-15T22:39:00.000-08:00

We're the only girls in 5 Science

[cukup 3 races HAHA]

[read from left ; Chik Yin, aku, Deb]

Things have been fine, Cruz

Well.. things have always been so fine..

It's just me who;s not fine

NO, haven't done so well

URGH exam's coming

PKS1 i mean..

AND I'm still not prepared

Haih, tade mood nak blaja

[due to some things]

So how?

[bak kate budak cina klas aku]

Stress Stress..

Ya, jika benci katakan Benci..

[Tak masal]

Back to the story..

School wat banyak activity

Gila penat

Pagi skola sampai 3.20pm

4.30 sampai 5.30pm ade House Practice

[hilang suare aku asyik marah budak2 je]

Then then..

6.30 dinner..

pastu..

7.45 till 9.30 pm , prep..

HUWAH!!

tade gap yang panjang langsung.

sedih aku :((

OH..! Food posoning aritu menyebabkan kitorang fobia nak makan school's foods

even so.. aku still gemok.

urgh! Bila nak kurusss!??

[p/s ; Whatever happens, I need to stay feelingless =.=!' plus, aku ta tindik oke. Cruz kate jangan HAHA sengal]

Deb suruh kate; I LOVE DEB ONLY! ngek!!

Hari Kami =]

2009-02-04T22:28:00.000-08:00

Wednesday, 28th Jan '09

Cruzito came by Kak Nani's house before we left for Pandan Indah :D

We both were so DAMN excited HAHA

*mcm ta pena dok KL plak*

Then, malam tu, we slept kat Pandan since Abang Amir ade :D

The next day, we made our way to KL

Hee...

29th Jan '09

We woke up early in the morning

*well, my watch says 9.30 a.m is early*

We had our nicely-foamed shower, then met Arul and Ellyn at my house

We took taxi to the Pizza Hut restaurant in Maluri

Had our heavy brunch :D

WOW happening je

BaliNis pon ade =]]

Arul dengan Cruz tak sudah2 sakat aku dengan manager Pizza Hut tu

aaa... name die ...

Rahmat kot? Ntah, rase nye lah

Manusia waiter tu pon menerima dengan ati terbuka untuk mempercayai kata2 mereka

HAHA

Then, lepas Bali abeh makan, we went to the LRT Maluri

Nak gi Pavi :D

BaliNis naek motor :( we were left behind HAHA

Right then , we met Tajal and Bad kat GSC tengok Underworld 3

although , kitorang actually underage, even Cruz herself HAHA

But who cares, biase je =]]

Pastu, pegi TS maen boling

I didn't play

So did Bad and Tajal and Ellyn

KOT? I think yang main cume Cruz, BaliNis and Arul

The rest hanye lah cheer leader :D

ANIS SCORED A STRIKE :D

Before 7, we all went back :D

or was it after 7? I'm not sure

Cruz and I bought cardigans and my specially-bought short dress

*I'll wear it with cardigan and slack of coz*

Right before we left, someone gave me something :D heee

thanks, didn't expect u'll do it for real

Ellyn, thanks :D

HEHEH

Then, sampai pandan, waited for Keai

Headed to Lazeez

makan2, lepak sane jap

Then balik.....

Woah so tiring woo...

30th and 31st kluar lagi

tapi cam tak larat je nak cite HAHA

30th Jan '09

One again, we w0ke up early :D

I washed some laundries, then get dressed

Went to Lazeez for breakfast with Arul, then left for home

Met Ellyn at her house, left for Midvalley

There, we met El and Aey for the first time

Like the day before, we met Bad again since he's free

We went to the Toys R Us and had fun

Then to Jusco

Ellyn and Bad found lots and lots of elephant =]]

Later that night, for dinner, we went to pasar malam

Around 10 p.m sampai rumah

Then, Bali took me on ride to the groceries to buy some kinda belon and Choki Choki

We had the best night that day

I mean, for me and Cruz

IT WAS SO FUN, GUYS..!!

I guess we didn't do much that day =[

31st Jan '09

The last day Cruz and I hang out :(

We agreed to split

I sent Cruz to meet Laju and Opie

While I went to hang with Bad, Tajal, and the Rejecteds

I met Syahir for the third time

His shocked expression showed that he didn't expect me to know them

Well, I didn't

I knew Bad and Tajal

And that's it HAHA

I don't exactly know what Cruz did, though I was worried so

I just lepak2 and borak2 je =]]

I met Cruz before balik around 7 p.m

We left for home around 7.30 p.m

That night, Kak Liza brought us to Taman Dagang's medan selera to have our dinner

[p/s; Cruz, Datang KL lagi k? Opie tunggu HAHAHAHA ]

What a Night aye?

2009-02-04T19:13:00.000-08:00

I kept thinking since last week

How should I tell and how should I let YOU know?

How can I say it without hurting you?

How can I make you understand that I still wanna be YOUR friend without asking?

It is hard.

In fact, I'm actually kinda lost my mind when I finally text you to tell you what happened

Was I THAT mean to tell you that I wanna be YOUR friend?

Okay, I was

But, I mean, I don't wanna end it all

Urf, I dunno

I'm torn :((

between MY life and what I want

aih.... so HARD lah

Em.. and today, people keep asking,

'Fa, what's wrong?'

HECK Lotsa thing went wrong damn it..! Can't you see the look in my bloody face?!

How can I be HAPPY if I could feel my heart KRUUKK KRAKK

*heartbroken*

URGH I'm so bloody stressed out..!!!!!!!

[p/s; kat skola. da siap keje oke??]

School =((

2009-01-18T19:51:00.000-08:00

Woah! I'm back in Genting :(( damn

haha. Started my first day of school on the 14th January 2009, Wednesday. Urgh damn tiring

hahah Bangun awal. tu pun terbabas bangun 10mins to 7a.m :D. thanks to Hikmah yang kejut :D hee

Pagi2, breakfast, mee goreng.

note; TAK SEDAP :D

everyday pun tak sedap =.=!'

kurus aku gini. ape la nasib isk isk

So.. Sabtu lepas start latihan Cross Country. Mak aii... penat nye.. takde la sangat2, tapi jauh. then patah balik, naik bukit. kaki aku da macam kaki gajah beratnye :( [comparing je oke] Then, Ahad pun ade. Ingat kan boleh tido. =.=!' penat penat penat!! AKU PENAT..!! naik tangge macam daki gunung rasenye kot. Harini, (Isnin) ade lagi. Yang betul2 punye, nanti Jumaat. Gila lama lagi. Jumaat tu jugak la Home Visit singning out. UYEH..!! sukaaaaa

heh.. Enough pasal Cross Country. Em.. ape lagi. OH I'm the 3rd Floor, floor leader :D Tak suka!! MISS BARB! NAK TUKA..!! Tak rela. heheh :D

lagi lagi.. Nak kurus. Azam tahun lepas kot HAHA. Em em cuti raya Cina, nak gi mane? any idea? Terperap dalam rumah. BELAJAR.. konon lah ;) Err....

Rights, gtg ;( jupe lagi di mase hadapan :D haha

[p/s; curik2 free surf kat computer lab :D ngee :D em Korang ? :( i miss u guys ah! urf.. so much ?? :D rindu SUDAN..!! :(( ]

The last words..

2009-01-10T04:22:00.000-08:00

I don't believe it..!
it's been what? A month or so I'm here, in Sudan =[[
What feels like few days has come to an end =[

um.. well um...
Guys, I'm gonna miss u eventhough we haven't spend much time
but yah, I'm still gonna miss u guys :(

Hope to see ya'll again
In Malaysia of course =]

Cheesecake; I'm so gonna miss u so damn much =]] U're so tasty HAHA I'm gonna miss your taste A LOT =]]

[p/s; sedey nyeee!! urf!]

Today, those memories

2009-01-08T02:21:00.000-08:00

I'm currently chatting with Cruzito
My beloved Muffin =]
Cruz? U jgn nanges lagi kay? U da janji en nk jadi stronger? =]]
We aren't talking about anything sad today
We've had enough to grieve on last night
We agreed to start something new and be stronger than we were

Yet today, as I was reading her livejournal..
I remembered when Atok used to take me on his motorcycle around kampong
Went into the rubber plantation..
To the palm oil plantation..
To the kedai kecik2 near school
Hmm..
I would canvas those memories if I could
I remember how did Atok helped me with those kerengga that I was so afraid of

Atok changed a lot since the first death occurred in our family
My Granny first, then my Unc, then another Unc..

Uhm..

Tagged (s)

2009-01-06T12:16:00.000-08:00

Tagged by; Ellyn

The rules ;

1. Your name/ user name

2. Left handed or right handed

3. Favorite letter to write

4. Least favorite letter to write

5. Write "The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog".

6. Tag 7 people:

Tagged by ; Arul

2008 Awards

Best day Award
-18th June

Best Memory Award
-Morocco holiday trip

Best Friend Award
-ShaLaLa (tho im not exactly one of em)

Best New Friend Award
-Bad

Best Enemy Award
-That girl :))

Song of The Year
-Why Don’t You Kiss Her

Movie of the year
-Eagle Eye

Male Singer of the year
-Vocal The Script

Female singer of the year
-Katy Perry

Duo/Band of the year
-The Script

Actor of the year
-Steven Strait =]]

Actress of the year
-Erk? Demi Lovato? LMFAO

TV program of the year
-Erks. HAHA ntah

DJ of the year
-Dunno

TV host of the year
-Ellen Degeneres

Scandal of the year
-Lilo and her lesbo

Best Hang Out Spot
-Pavilion, Bukit Bintang.

Best Cinema
-GSC Signature, The Gardens.

Best Eating Place
-Carl's Junior

Best Bowling Spot
-kat Afra LMFAO

Best Bookshop
-Times, Pavilion.

Best Shopping Spot
-Tesco

Best Karaoke Spot
-Erks?

Mostly Done Activity
-Online-ing

Best Website
-Woah? Youtube? eh

Other awards you would like to give

Best person
-Fareeha HAHA

9 people you wanna tag
- Eizaz
- Cato
- Ellyn
- Syifa
- Ntah
- Tak
- Tahu
- Nak
- sape

Tagged by; Kak Jieba

Rulez!!!

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers in their blog.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz. (Those that are tagged cannot refuse.)
C) Continue this game by tagging 8 other people

Eizaz
Cato
Arul
Ellyn
Syifa
Maira
Cruzito
Bad

1.What have you been doing recently?
> listen to some songs, calling, texting, eating, online-ing, chatting

2.Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
> yah sometimes. Bile hang

3.What happened at 10am today?
> i was sleeping

4.When did you last cry?
> semalam, last time hanging out wif him

5.Believe in fate/destiny?
> AHAH depends

6.What do you want in your life now?
> let SPM goes away

7.Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
> I prefer to put up my hood

8.What's your favourite thing to do on the bed?
> talking thru cellphone

9.What bottoms are you wearing now?
> track bottom

10.What's the nicest things in your inbox?
> msgs from him, and frens

11.Do you tend to make the relationship complicated?
> hell NO

12.Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
> em No

13.What was the last movie you caught?
> em ape ek.. Pirates of The Caribbean 3

14.What are you proud of?
> family, myself (sometimes)

15.What does the oldest text msg in your inbox say?
> from Kak Nani, giving her hp number and her house address

16.What was the last song you sang out loud?
> Nickelback – Far Away

17.Do you have any nicknames?
> Fa =] Along :D

18.What does the newest text say?
> Fa, balek msia. I need u so badly! :( -ellyn-

19.What time did you go to bed last night?
> 2 am

20.Are you currently happy?
> yah.. just not today :((

21.Who gives you the best advise?
> er. Someone :D

22.Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
> erks? ahaha

23.Who did you talk on the phone last night?
> hmm.. him

24.Is something bugging you now?
> always.

25.Who was the last person to make you laugh?
> him too haha

Tagged by; Syifa

You have to list 7 weird things about yourself, post it in your blog, tag at least 7 people (list their names),and comment on their blog to let them know that you just tagged them.

#1
always wanted to study, but never does. Pelik ke? Macam tak

#2
minom coffee malam2 atas alas an nk tido

#3
sukaa tendang katil or dinding bile marah

#4
belek2 hp sedangkan everything is d same :D

#5
sukaa nyanyi melalak, tapi tak suke org dgr

#6
ade guitar, tp tak bape reti main

#7
suke kumpul accessories, tpi tak pena pakai

those who've been tagged :)
Eizaz
Cato
Arul
Ellyn
Sape2
Yang
nak

Tagged by; Eizaz

honestly are you in love right now?
- Woah? HAHA rahsia
-
honestly whats going on in your mind right now?
- Thinking of someone
-
honestly what are you doing right now?
- Counting how many minutes left till midnight and typing

honestly what you did today?
- Chatting. Helped mum, update blog, and attend Atok’s tahlil

honestly, do you think you are attractive?
- Hell NO

honestly, have you done something bad today?
- Erks, ya, I hurt someone =[ sory

honestly, do you watch disney channel?
- OMG how can I miss it?

honestly, are you jealous on someone?
- Eh yah I do

honestly, what makes you happy all the time?
- Family, frens and him :D

honestly, what do you want to see at this very moment?
- Him before me :)) lmfao

honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?- who doesn’t?

honestly, do you hate someone right now??- hmm yah I do

honestly, what do you wanna hug rite now?- my errr.. haha u know

honestly, do your wrist hurt?- er.. ya a bit

honestly, are you in denial?
- yah a bit

honestly, is it easier to talk in myspace than in personal?
- Nope

honestly, does anyone like you?- how shud I know?

Honestly,is it going anywhere with them?
- I think so. HAHA lmfao

Honestly,do you answer this question correctly?
- Who cares!

tagged :
Arul
Cato
Ellyn
Bad
Syifa

[p/s; sape kene tagged byk2 tu. redha je la :D haha]

Holiday at Morocco

2009-01-06T11:31:00.000-08:00

Mom and Dad

Snowy place's name =D

Batu Gunung kate nye

[p/s; baru dapat update gambar :( darn ]

Atok, I MISS YOU

2009-01-06T02:58:00.000-08:00

Cruz? U dah taw?
Atok.. He's gone

I got a call from Dad, around 1.58pm

Dad ; Atok da meninggal
Me ; Bile?
Dad ; 10mins lepas

CRUZ..!! I wanna go home. I wanna be there. I wanna see him for the last time

Atok, may u rest in peace
AL-FATIHAH

I miss u, Atok =[[

Berry and Cheesecake =]

2009-01-03T11:43:00.000-08:00

Berry and Cheesecake are the two forever-best friends. Berry is a girl, and Cheesecake is a boy. Cheesecake used to have a girlfriend, Chocolate, which is Berry’s friend. Close friend. When Chocolate and Cheesecake were a lovely couple, the only topic that Berry and Chocolate shared everyday was how Cheesecake was on their date. Berry wasn’t jealous or sad because at that time, Cheesecake and her aren’t as close as they are now. So, whenever Cheesecake talk to Berry, Berry knew it was about Chocolate. ‘Hey, is Chocolate here?’ or ‘Hey, will Chocolate come?’

One day, Chocolate and Cheesecake had a huge fight. They broke up and Chocolate was so determined to get rid of Cheesecake from her life. So since that day, Berry gave Cheesecake an update about Chocolate until one day, Cheesecake too, sounded so convincing that Cheesecake wanted to chuck out Chocolate.

Berry and Cheesecake kept in touch with each other everyday –well, almost everyday. They shared stories, they laughed, and they helped each other. As for Berry, Cheesecake always gives Berry a helping hand whenever Berry needs Cheesecake. Even when one day, Berry had to move out of town, Cheesecake was there to give her a goodbye. Although, at that moment, Berry was kind of liking Cheesecake’s friend, Caramel.

Once Berry settled down in the new town, Berry never forget to update Cheesecake how is she doing there. Berry missed Cheesecake so much that Berry intended to go back to her old place just to visit him when she’s free. Cheesecake never forgets to keep on calling Berry every time Cheesecake went online. And surprisingly, Berry was so very happy to answer those calls even though those calls will be after midnight came.

Berry finally came back to her old place. She met her friends and not forgetting meeting Cheesecake. Berry was so pleased to see Cheesecake. Berry didn’t realize that, the closer they get, the deeper the feeling she has for Cheesecake. Just then, when Cheesecake hugged Berry right before Berry left for home, Berry felt chills run down her nerves. Berry then knew that, at that very second, Berry fell in love with her best-boy-friend.

A few weeks are enough for both Berry and Cheesecake to confess their feelings. Yet, Berry didn’t give in too many hopes on Cheesecake for she knew she had to leave that town again. However, when one day, it was New Year, Cheesecake came and proposed Berry to be his official girlfriend; Berry was so surprised that Berry answered him without a blink of an eye. They hugged each other so tight afterwards.

Since that very day, Berry keep on hoping that Cheesecake will keep on colouring her life as she coloured his.

[p/s; Int still K.O :(( sedeh2. cerita ini hanye lah rekaan semate2 :) tiade kene ngene dgn yg idup atau yg mati. harap maklum. kisah ini tiade kene ngene dgn sy juge ;)) ]

A Love Story

2009-01-01T08:16:00.000-08:00

A girl and a boy were on a motorcycle, speeding through the night. They loved each other a lot.....

Girl : Slow down a little,,, I'm scared..
Boy : No, it's so fun..
Girl : Please.. it's so scary..
Boy : Then say that you love me..
Girl : Fine.. I love you..... Can you slow down now?
Boy : Give me a big hug..
The girl gave him a big hug.

Girl : Now can you slow down?
Boy : Can you take off my helmet and put it on? It's so uncomfortable and it's bothering me while I'm riding.

The next day, there was a story in the newspaper. A motorcycle had crashed into a building because its breaks were broken. There were two people on the motorcycle, of which one died, and the other one had survived...
The guy knew that the breaks were broken. He didn't want to let the girl know, because he knew that the girl would have gotton scared. Instead, he was told the last time that she loved him, got a hug from her, put his helmet on her so that she can live, and die himself...

[p/s; can't update my blog coz of the internet line =[[ ]

Takde Keje

2008-12-13T01:23:00.000-08:00

Woke up this mornin' with a news dat grandpa's sick
=[[ he's in the hospital right now
Mom told me that the whole family is goin' back to Malaysia
To pay him a visit =[
That's sad
The last time I saw him, he was so fine

A few minutes later
I found myself right in front of my bro's laptop to rock a friend with that news
unfortunately..
He wasn't online

Grabbed my bro's cell
Gave him a ring and asked him to come online
Yet,
I'm still waiting
WHERE ARE YOU..!? =[[

To make myself comfortable,
I listen to some songs
and one of those
is kinda my favourite
NO, not a fav, but it's nice to listen to
=]]

[p/s; just came back from Morocco =[ hope to spend time with a friend, but in the end, i dont know if I can =[[ ]

Alkisah Semata-mata 2

2008-12-01T01:54:00.000-08:00

There was this little girl

She has a cute little best-boy-friend

She thought she would never have any feelings

For this cute little boy

Yet, the most dreadful thing happened

She never expected it to be happening

But it just did

She fell in love with him

Though she knew..

She can never say it out loud

For she’s afraid of what might happen

She never wanted the boy to leave

So she kept her lips sealed

She always wanted to have him

But she knew she couldn’t

So she decided

Till the day she leaves

The world for eternity

She would keep her feelings for herself

She just hope

The boy she loves the most

Will never forget her For eternity

[p/s; sy kebosanan. krn itu sy mengada-adakan cerita ini. tiade kene ngene dgn yg idup atau yg mati. harap maklum. kisah ini tiade kene ngene dgn sy juge :)) ]

Secondhand Serenade - Why

2008-12-01T01:48:00.000-08:00

[p/s; this song is dedicated to the person i buried deep down in my heart. may u know,this song is for u]

Tagged =]

2008-11-24T12:58:00.000-08:00

Ditagged oleh ; Arul

Tag kali ni pasal work station. Dan arahannya ialah : Snap work station anda. Then, pas tag ni pada 7 blogger yang lain.

mangse tag;

1- ellyn

2- eizaz

3-alex

4- mira elyanie

5- syifa

6 - ariff

7- aliff

Ray's Birthday!

2008-11-23T10:00:00.000-08:00

Venue ; Ray's place

Date ; 22nd Nov 2008

Time ; 7.30pm

7teen

The cake

Unity High School's students

Acap, Alex

Jacob Cha

Hafizah

Acap

Nabihan

Nazifa

The Girls

Miftah the comel

Alex

Fatma and... lupa dah

Merve and Yang

Azim Mia

Cha and Yang

Cha and I

Azim and I

Myself

Happy Birthday Ray!

[p/s; had a great time]

Think it happens?

2008-11-21T02:33:00.001-08:00

HELL YES!!!! It's happening!!
Right NOW!
Right HERE!!!

I'm bleeding
I'm wounded
I'm torn

And yes... it ~~fucking~~ pisses me off!!!

Ellyn? Kaio?

2008-11-20T23:01:00.000-08:00

GUYS!! I'm missing you lah..!! urffff

Ellyn ; bley chat lagi tape =]]
Kaio ; ?? GOD I miss you..!!!!

Ellyn... thanks for the song =]
haven't heard this song for ages!!!
haha suke suke

Outlandish - Callin' You

[p/s; miss you miss you miss you!!!!!!!]

Alkisah Semata-mata

2008-11-20T10:28:00.000-08:00

Once.. A friend of mine asked me to do a favour
And I agreed
He asked me to stop writing anything that is sad
And proves that I’m living in misery
He asked me to promise him
And so I made that promise

Since that day
What I wrote weren’t anything sad or happy
But they were rubbish
I guess…

Yet tonight I’m asking you for a favour
And it will only be just tonight
Though I can’t make another promise
I just can assure you
This will be the only post that somehow in a way
For me.. Isn’t a crap

I once had someone in my very heart
I know it was selfish of me to have someone in my mind
And to have someone else as a bf
But what can I do
The bf was an asshole
And the other one..
Who found the key to unlock my heart,
Was a gent

When I somehow getting closer to him
I found out..
He was my friends’

I..
Suddenly felt dead
I was hoping..
For the first time in my life
That I was alone
So that I could cry my heart out
I don’t know why I over reacted
So I’m sorry..

Then..
I decided
That should be my last time
Having to let go someone I should hold on so tight
I won’t ever let someone else found that key to my heart
But that’s my mistake
How can anyone found that key
If he still has it with him

And now..
Here I am
Not yet standing
But he’s there to hand me a helping hand
Right now..
I have him
Even though I know it’s only for a while..
It’s enough for me

And to you..
Thanks for being with me.
I’ll always remember this particular holiday..

[p/s; sy kebosanan. krn itu sy mengada-adakan cerita ini. tiade kene ngene dgn yg idup atau yg mati. harap maklum. kisah ini tiade kene ngene dgn sy juge :)) ]

Tagged lagi

2008-11-16T11:45:00.000-08:00

Ditagged oleh : Arul

1) Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture of yourself right NOW!

2) DON'T change your clothes, DON'T fix your hair...just take a picture

3) Post that picture with NO editing

4) Post these instruction with your picture

5) Tag 10 people to do this

10 tagged ones

-Eizaz

-Ellyn

-Aliff

-Merve

-Mira Elyanie

-aku

-da

-tak

-tau

-sape lagi =]]

Tagged ;)

2008-11-16T11:21:00.000-08:00

Ditagged oleh ; Aishahtur Raadhiyah

1)Do you think you're hot?
ABSOLUTELY NO! ;) haha

2)Upload your favourite picture of you!

3)Why do you like that picture?
sbb gmbr tu penipu ;) [kulit nk licin je]

4)When was the last time you ate pizza?
summer hols this yr [2008]

5)The last song you listened to?
Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy

6)What are you doing right now besides this?
chat dgn ellyn je ;)

7)What name would you preffer besides yours?
entah..

People i tag
1) ellyn
2) Eizaz
3) Syifa
4) Mira elyanie

8)Who is number 1?
twinnie

9)Number 3 is having a relationship with?
ta amek taw plak

10)Say something about number 5?
ha??

11)How about number 4?
haaaa??

12)Who is number 2?
orang?? ;)

Friday; 14th Nov 2008

2008-11-16T10:50:00.000-08:00

WOARGH!!! last paper!!
i left school around 2pm
head to skyway > KL central

Met Kaio there ;)
had a rest for a while
then took LRT and left for my place ;)

arrived.. then met Ellyn and Nalza for a good 15 minutes
left for JJ maluri with Kaio ;)

bought stuff..
met Sara, Ellyn, Nalza with Kaio along
had our 'moment'
took photos.. left for home

ellyn and nalza came to my house
helped a lot ;)

then... i left for KLIA :((

scarf = Nalza

Short pants = Ellyn

handbag = Sara

boy = Kaio ;)

[p/s ; got 'gifts' from kaio. KAIO.? I miss u so damn much lah!]

Midvalley with Arul + Sara

2008-11-16T10:26:00.000-08:00

Venue; Midvalley Megamall
Date; Coudn't remember for sure

Arul n sara waited for me kat LRT btr
came a lil' late
left for mid
had some fun :)

I MISS THAT MOMENT!

watched Wall-E!!

[p/s; scandal itu tidak benar sama sekali =)) ]

Alex on drugs [Acap said]

2008-10-27T05:18:00.000-07:00

i dont know the title. i got this song from acap ;)

[p/s; Kinda nice song jugak ;)]

Happy Birthday Sayang!

2008-10-25T06:26:00.000-07:00

Date ; October 25th, 2008 (today)
Venue ; McDonald's BB ;)
Time ; 1pm
Event ; My Sayang Twinnie's Birthday

Omg!!! Today's kinda the best day in my life!
Em.. I met Ellyn at her house; Pandan Indah =]]
Then her mom sent us to LRT Pandan Indah ;)
Went to McD to reserve place for us to sit
Met Nisya, Nad, Laili, Fany.. and some of her frens
Arul and Kaio were there too
HEHE :)
So we had our meal..
Then Kaio and I left for Pavi ;)

Had a walk together and met Arul again to watch Eagle Eye
[Dat movie was SO cool! ;)]
We left again for Sg Wang to meet Ellyn
Only this time, Syahir, Syazwan and his cousin were with her
And oh! Syahir knew Kaio
Ahaha we took some photos
Ellyn and I
Kaio and I

After that, had a quick window shop, then balek ;)
hehe

Wah! Im so happy lah today!!
Can't stop smiling oh ;)

Ellyn's Birthday Cake ;)

Birthday Girl =]

Her again =]]

Ellyn + Laili

Ellyn + Kaio =]]

Ellyn + Arul =]]

Sayang!? ;) Happy Sweet 16 yeah! ;) ILY syg

[p/s; I had my day today ;) hopefully im gonna have more! ;) ]

Credits to Cruzito :)

2008-10-04T00:30:00.000-07:00

Cruzito punye keje =]]

Ariff Ikhwan :)

Fa punye keje =]]

[p/s; kanak2 itu sangat comel :) ]

From Kaio

2008-09-30T00:09:00.000-07:00

With or Without You - Sungha Jung

Kaio [maaf kpd sesiapa di sebelah beliaw]

[p/s; gile jeles tgk budak tu maen]

Raya-ing ;(

2008-09-29T23:57:00.000-07:00

Sudan dah raya oh :(
OMG im sorang2 this raya!!!!
TIDAK!!!!
so.. erm

tade pape nk kate dah

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR jelah. batin aku ta wat pape BATIN

[p/s; ayah? Duit raya?? ;) ]

Answer it. Pretty PLEASE?? ;))

2008-09-29T23:21:00.000-07:00

1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. Do you have a crush on me?

5. Would you kiss me?

6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

7. Describe me in one word.

8. What was your first impression?

9. Do you still think that way about me now?

10. What reminds you of me?

11. If you could give me anything what would it be?

12. How well do you know me?

13. When's the last time you saw me?

14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?

[p/s; Curik dari Kaio ;) thnks!]